10:11pm Mom says: “Yeah, some lady today was impaled by a fallen tree branch today. She was driving, it fell some 70 ft and crash through the roof of her car and *lip smack noise* right into her belly. Lucky it missed her internal organs.”
Thanks for the story, ma.
This ones going to be more of a diary today. And without further a due, I’m feeling so out of place lately. I can’t really relate to the kids at my school, and the brief friends I made out of school seem to have quickly lost interest in me.
It hurts; they gave me such confidence, but now they barely text me. Being Sammie, I automatically - and perhaps irrationally but who knows - assume that it has something to do with “me” and take is as a blow to my self-esteem.
Not to mention, the one girl that I feel I can connect with lives a couple towns over, and with my hectic AP/work schedule, there’s little time to keep up “long distance” relationships. Not to mention, I’m just no good at them as of yet! It dumbfounds me, how girls can make sisters out of best friend; I wish I could create the same for myself. It would seem that I’ve only got Michael (not that he isn’t great).
I don’t know. Antioch just lacks the kind of stimulation that I crave. My friends are great, but I can’t help feeling like I’m forcing myself to fit, but I’m not quite the right shape (not quite at all). I cannot imagine spending my senior year in the States anymore. Foreign Exchange is just the short of experience I need for a long term fix. Short term? Clear up my fucking schedule by dropping down from AP Bio.